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ed unsure of how to act. Mayumi Ono was
not comfortable with Mayumi's exposure because Mayumi Ono did not believe in her
sexiness and somehow felt silly.
I discovered something that was to become central in my desire to dominate
Heather; I must find ways to transmit my feelings to her. Heather must
feel what I feel, it was up to me to make Mayumi's feel sensual and erotic.
Mayumi Ono would get beyond Mayumi's own feelings only when Mayumi Ono understood mine.
Mayumi Ono sat across from me now as we ate breakfast together. Mayumi Ono felt better
now that Mayumi's nakedness was hidden by the table. I stared at Mayumi's for
the longest time and asked Mayumi's why Mayumi Ono felt silly.
"I don't know," Mayumi Ono replied truthfully, for I believe that Mayumi Ono truly
did not realize why.
"Heather," I began to explain to her, "you feel silly because you have
not recognized your own sexuality, or at least you do not believe in it.
You act as if you are captive to what you were taught as a child, and that
is that you are not allowed to expose your body to others because it is
somehow dirty or not right to do that. Well, Heather, th
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